I have to share this with you guys. It is so unbelievable but then again it is not. I am not sure why I am so surprised by it!
I lost my job in December due to them closing their doors. The first few weeks I sought other positions and tried to work my Mary Kay business as much as possible. An opportunity presented itself to me ... something which has been on my heart for years ... to attend classes to become a peer counsel for the Pregnancy Center. I enrolled not knowing if I would actually be able to do this because if I returned to work, then it would not afford me the time I would need to do this volunteer counseling. I also wanted to volunteer with another organization, but I have also been afraid to pursue this desire because of my uncertainty of my work schedule.
As I attended the classes at the Pregnancy Center, my heart became real heavy with concern as to the uncertainty of my future. I knew without a doubt what God wanted from me, but I was not certain if He was presenting these opportunities to me now or exactly what was happening.
While all of this was transpiring, my Mary Kay business had picked up enough where I felt I could afford to only work part-time. I then interviewed for a part-time position that I feel confident I will get. However, through all of this, again I was fumbling with what I was supposed to be doing.
Finally, I just laid it all out before God. I basically prayed, "God, it seems to me that opportunities are crossing my path daily which are desires You placed in my heart years ago. I so want to pursue these, however, I am uncertain as to what I am to do in order to pay my bills and maintain my lifestyle. God, I know what Your design is for me but I need to see something ... I need to know without a doubt that You are blessing the works of my hands and I am in alignment with your will for my life. God, if I am to pursue this counseling position and be able to do more works to glorify You, then You so need to increase my Mary Kay business to provide for me."
Everyone, listen to me!!!! It seemed as if the following day my world in Mary Kay simply turned in another direction. Within a few days, my sales increased, I recruited 3 consultants as new team members, and things are looking up. I am in awe! What an awesome God we serve.
I am far from being confident about the road I am currently on, but I strive daily to glorify Him each step of the way, continue to seek His face, and walk in faith knowing He has my future in His hands. Where better could I be?
I ask that you continue to pray for me. Pray that I will never allow the blessings He is bestowing on me to take precedence over Him. I need to always know that all good things come from above, and I am but a vessel to be used of Him for His glory.