This morning I was looking at some things and I was beginning to become so discouraged with life! I walk around so confused at times by people ... by myself! I have to wonder daily "why" ... "did we do something" ... "did we not do something" ... "have we become so desensitized that we cannot even be supportive" ... "have our lives become so busy that we do not have a second to be that helping hand" ... "have we become so prideful that we can pass judgment thinking we know what we truly do not know" ... "have we become so blind that we allow love ones to walk out of our lives because we cannot bring ourselves to admit our own faults" ... "are we really going to allow others to dictate our lives based on their happiness" ... "do we think so little of others that we cannot seem to make time for them" ... "are we so fake that reality is a distant vision" ... "are we so busy playing church that we are failing those outside the church or outside our church family"? The conclusion I come up with in answer to all of these questions is ... we are all so hurt, so busy, so overwhelmed, so sad inside that we do not even realize when we do a lot of the things I pointed out. We have allowed so much of the world to seep into our lives that we have become filled with more of the world and less of Him. This may not be your answer but it is what I sense in the pit of my soul for most. I know I am at fault a lot because of some of the things I mentioned. I know I could use less of the world and more of Him. I choose today to purposely place Him at the forefront of my mind ... one second at a time, one minute at a time, one hour at a time. I have to break it down like this or it goes away ... my determination to focus more on Him and not on the world.
I know you may be asking yourself, "If you have to break it down as this and purposely focus on Him, then you must not know Him very well at all." Not so! I know Him very well! I 'simply' have been chasing the world and leaving Him behind. Today, He is in the lead and the world is behind. Because I have become so accustomed to doing things my way ... the world's way ... I have to re-train myself so He becomes second nature to me again. Yes, He is the first thing I think of when I wake in the morning, but then what? Do I continue to remain focused on Him, or once my feet hit the floor, do I allow my world to take over? Lately, I have had to purposely remain focused on Him past the point of opening my eyes. I have had to rely on Him totally once my feet hit that floor.
Life is hard! Life is difficult! Life is challenging! Life is painful! BUT life can be easy ... life can be relaxing ... life can be victorious ... life can be a freedom you desire daily ... if and only if you start your day with Him and you walk with Him every second of each day! It is the only way to navigate this thing we call life! It is the only way to overcome the storms which ravage us daily! It is the only way to learn to dance in the rain despite the lightning looming above! Today ... second by second ... I give it over to Him. Take me away "JESUS"! Not to walk with blinders on ... not to ignore what I know I need to do despite the hurt or heaviness of life ... not to use as an excuse to do things my way BUT to cast my cares and allow Him to work in and through me. I must give it over to Him first thing in the morning and then let Him show me how to walk ... where to walk ... when to walk ... when to crawl and when to run! If I take life at His pace and not mine, it becomes a journey of joy despite the black clouds looming above.
Walk in sunshine today! I am ... not because my world is bright and shining because believe me it is not ... but because I am allowing His light to radiate in me, through me, and all around me. Please do the same ... know that He loves you ... know that He hears your cries ... know that He is waiting for you to give it over to Him so He can carry the burdens. The heaviness of this world is much, too much, for me to tote alone. I need His strength!
Love you guys! Pray for me and know that I am praying for you!