I chose to begin this new phase in my life this week for a reason. After reading everything I could expect my body to go through, I felt not having my son at the house for a week was for the best. He is currently on Spring break and at his daddy's. I thought it would be so unfair to him to put him through this with me. It is bad enough my co-workers and my husband have to deal. I really am trying to make this as easy on everyone else as I can.
Many, many years ago, I said I would be in my best health ever when I reached my 60th birthday. Well, I blew it awhile back. It is hard to reach goals when you have no motivation or drive. My life being in chaos did not leave me much in the way of encouragement. I had too many battles I was already fighting. I kept coming up with one excuse after another after another after another.
Is this not what we do? We will get married when we save enough! We will have a baby once we build a home! We will buy a new car once we have cash saved! We will lose weight when we do not have so much on our plate! We will go to the gym when our schedule lightens up! We will detox from sugar when our marriage is perfect and our children are grown! One excuse after another! If we wait for the perfect time, we will die without ever having married ... being childless ... living in our cars ... overweight ... and just getting by! Seriously!
From what I read, the side effects of sugar withdrawal is moodiness, crying, depression, sleeping too much, headaches, cravings, and the list goes on. Well, my Friends, I am going through the crying ... the moodiness ... the headaches ... and the cravings for now. I practically cried all the way to work this morning. I am so anxious for the sleeping too much and the depression to set in. If Donnie and I were not already living in separate homes, we would be after these past two days ... LOL! This is horrible. Why in the world am I doing this to myself? How could something so horrible be so good for you? Read what sugar does for you in the long run, and you will have your answer.
To make matters even worse, when we are going through something as this, we see more of the enemy in our lives. He will use whatever ... whoever ... to pour salt in the wound. What can go wrong, will go wrong. We have to be smart enough to know this. I keep telling myself that my impatience ... my crying ... my feelings of unworthiness ... feeling blah ... these are all happening because my body is going through sugar withdrawals. The devil is whispering in my ear otherwise. Through prayer for me, you can help me remain strong!
My goals have changed in life on many levels. Now I will be in my best health ever by the age of 65. Here is how I am going to achieve this ... one baby step at a time. I want to walk this out with you guys for encouragement and accountability. I want to lose weight but I want to be healthy. There are A LOT of people walking around who look pretty darn good on the outside, but on the inside it is a totally different story. I do not want to be them.
My first seven days I will go without sugar. If I am this bad after only two days, I cannot wait to see how I am on day seven. I may be actually swinging from the ceiling ... LOL! I think they say after a week, then the symptoms start getting better and eventually you will no longer crave sugar. I am praying for His strength to carry me through.
At the end of the first seven days, then I will add another challenge to my list ... start watching my sodium intake ... maybe add an exercise. I am not for sure what I will add but I will add something every seven days. Any suggestions?
My blood pressure was up a bit when I went to the doctor a few weeks back. I weigh in at ... do I actually want to share this? Are you ready for the answer? 228!!!!! I cannot believe I have allowed myself to get to this point, but it is what it is. Where I go from here is all that matters. I will weigh in again on Monday. Every Monday will be my weigh in day.
I need your prayers. I truly do. I have tried this before and failed. I am hoping my closer walk with Him ... my growth in faith ... my stronger desire to be my best for Him ... my desire to be here for my children and grandchildren ... all of these things together will give me the fortitude to press through. Also, please, if you have any suggestions I am more than willing to hear them. You can comment on here ... comment on FB ... or send me a private message. I need your encouragement and prayers for strength.
Love you guys!
Janet Molton Nicholson