I am not complaining by any means as much as I am trying to make a point. My lack of humility ... my pride ... my inability to say I was wrong ... my 'know-it-all' attitude ... my inability to listen ... my need to control ... all of these things have done nothing for me but hamper my growth in life. They held me back, and I am finding out everyday ... through Christ and His Word ... through these classes we are required to take at work ... through my daily interactions with others ... through my failed attempts at succeeding in life ... through the lessons I have learned through trials I needlessly put myself through ... through failed relationships ... through testing by Him ... that my way was not the way. The more humble I become ... the less prideful I am ... the more I am able to admit I was wrong and make it right ... the more I listen and the less I talk ... well, I am finally growing in ways which are proving to be truly beneficial to me, but even better, they are beneficial to those around me. If only I could bottle these lessons in life and sell them to others ... especially the younger generation! It would save some a lot of self-made hardships in life. As the old adage goes ... "you can teach an old dog new tricks"! OR, is it "you can't teach an old dog new tricks? Wrong!
Putting aside my eventful day, I am out of sorts this evening. It is very rare I write at night, but I just needed to share. I may not always specify my needs, hurts, or desires, but just writing seems to lift my spirits and helps me get back on track. It is as though ... while in the midst of writing ... God speaks to me through what He lays upon my heart to share with you, and thus I hear Him speaking to me. I know it may sound a bit strange to you, but this is one of the many ways God works in my life. Tonight is no different. As I typed what I shared above, it opened my eyes to some things which are heavily weighing me down. In sharing with you with the intention of being a gift to you, I in turn see how He is ministering to me. He uses me to open my own eyes. Tell me that is not something only God could do ... LOL!
Ok, I will finish this blog in the morning. I have been uplifted ... praise God! ... so I am going to chill and enjoy the remainder of my evening. Have a great night and I will chat with you in the morning!
2.13.2016: As you can see I did not return to finish the blog. It is amazing how quickly our days seem to go. When we were younger, we counted the days until we turned 13 ... turned 16 ... turned 18 ... and then turned the famous '21'. After that, we no longer needed to count the days because they went by so quickly we did not have time to count them. Today each day is a gift, and one which we take for granted more than we should.
It is 4:00 a.m. on Saturday morning, and just like you, I am wondering what in the world I am doing up at this ungodly hour. I simply could not sleep. My mind is on overload, with 50 million ideas running through it, so I finally relented and just got up. I have a lot I desire to accomplish today so I might as well get started. I just finished cleaning the refrigerator out, so now I am chatting with you.
How has your week been? Mine has been good. A few frustrating moments, but nothing earth shattering. I simply do not understand things or people at times. You give 200% to glorify Christ in all you do and say, and you still get put on the spot. I have a situation where I more than understand the cause but I do not understand the effect. I wish I could share more than that, but unfortunately I cannot. It just is another situation which proves how unfair life can be at times. People say life is what you make of it, but this is so not true. Life is what you make of what is dealt to you. We embark daily on a new day with the best of intentions, but then life throws you a curve ball for which you had no control. Your life then becomes about how you handle the situation and where to go from that moment.
I am excited as our new living room furniture is supposed to be here this weekend. It is long overdue. We are doing home improvements, and it is exciting but a lot of work. We are re-doing our kitchen at the same time. My husband and son have stripped all the cabinet facings and removed them, re-ordered new facings, and are stripping the base cabinets. We are painting them, replacing the kitchen window and flooring, and lastly purchasing a new stove. The knobs we ordered online for the cabinets came in and they are so pretty. They are antique-looking. I think it is going to be really nice once we are finished. I say 'we' but again it is my son and husband who are doing the majority of the work.
I laid in bed last night ... this morning ... and God gave me ideas to grow my Mary Kay business. I have been on a sort of slump lately due to being ill and people standing me up. It will not deter me, however, because I know I have God's favor. This is where He wants me for this season, so I am confident He will carry me as long as I do the work and put forth the effort. I love the products and the people I have met thus far are truly great! It is a wonderful organization. I cannot say enough good about it.
Are we going to get another storm this weekend? I surely hope not. But, if we must have bad weather, please pray it is snow and not ice. Today is supposed to be one of the coldest days on record. My husband and a few others are going hunting. Better them than me ... they are going to freeze! I say they will not stay out there long.
Big plans for Valentine's Day? My husband took me out for dinner last night, and when we returned home, I had a bouquet of flowers on the table. They are very pretty. My son is at his dad's for the 3-day weekend, but I bought him a few things for which I cannot wait to give him. I will go out today and find something nice for my husband. I hope you all are treated with as much love as you deserve. God has so much love to offer you, and I so pray you are receiving it daily.
Let me wrap up for now. I have some Bible reading I want to do, and then I have a full day ahead of me. I hope you all stay warm, and I will be in touch!