The second part of the definition of ‘woe’ states that it could express the threat of future punishment. I think you see the significance of using the word ‘woe’.
Today I was the one saying, “Woe, Lord, It’s Me!” As I have shared in previous blogs and articles, I have been dealing with some issues in life which are both troublesome and of great concern. They effect every aspect of my life, especially my future and what it could or could not mean to me and others. Things have sort of spiraled downward over the course of the past few weeks, to the point where I was feeling pretty desperate. I had sought opinions of others only to feel even worse. Not that their advice was not solid or biblical, but because I did not want to hear it. I wanted them to see that all of this was not my fault. I painted quite the picture.
Let me say first off that I do not have a lot of control over things occurring in and around me. However, I am not perfectly innocent. This is what I needed God to show me.
While at home today ... I stayed home ill ... I sat down with pen and Bible to seek God. It is something I felt I was doing daily, but not in the way I should have been. I was trying so desperately to maintain some sense of control ... I was allowing pride to stop me from doing as I felt God was leading. I refused to listen ... plain and simple! I was running around in circles and getting no where. I would speak to God about it occasionally throughout the day, but I was not truly seeking His face ... I was not laying it at the foot of the cross ... I was harboring feelings I knew were wrong ... I did not want to get over anything and admit my part in any of this. I only wanted to see the wrongs done to me. I only gave credence to what I perceived as self-serving motives of another. In essence, this was about ‘me’ and no one else.
I shared with God why I thought things were happening as they were. You know ... I allowed Him to listen to my opinion. I graced Him with my solutions. I favored Him by sharing what I could and could not take ... what I would and would not take. I bent His ear with how I was going to resolve these issues. Then to top it off, I could not for the life of me understand why I was not hearing from Him ... go figure!
Today I surrendered it all. I shared my innermost fears. I admitted I was harboring bitterness and I simply did not know how to release it. I cried out to Him with a sincere heart ... a heart which was being defeated more and more daily ... a heart consumed with pride. I told God I was so sorry for trying to do it my way. For so many years of my life, I was the one who fixed things for others. I did not know how to fix things for me. You know the amazing thing ... He told me I was not expected to fix my issues. This is what He is here for. He is my Heavenly Father, and as such, He wants me to give Him my problems as He is my defender. He will fight my battles. Bottom line, the battle does not belong to me.
I am a long ways off from where I need to be in these situations, but my friend, I can tell you this. I feel as if the weight I have been carrying around needlessly has been lifted. I see hope where I thought there was none. I see a future where I only saw darkness. I see my situations being turned around to glorify Him. I just needed to give them to Him. It is hard for Him to take care of issues for me when I keep them to myself. Sure I shared bits and pieces with Him periodically ... I gave Him what I felt He needed to have, and then, I held on to what I wanted control over. I wanted to fix it my way and not His way.
As I was sitting here, I heard God say to me, “Daughter, I just need you to grow where you are planted”. My first reaction was “HOW”? I could give you fifty million reasons why I cannot grow where I am planted. However, I serve an awesome God. He put the planet into being ... He created everything ... He made me for crying out loud!! I am going to doubt He can promote me where I am currently? I am going to falter in my faith that He can blossom me in my current situations? I am going to doubt He can work in and through me, just as He will in others around me? His words I felt rise up in the very pit of my soul. His Word says in Ezekiel 17:10: “Though it is planted, will it thrive and grow? Will it not completely wither when the east wind touches it? It will wither in the beds where it grew.”
I do not want to only thrive during good times. I do not want to wither and die when distress or hard times present themselves in my life. God wants me to stand and then to continue to stand until He tells me to move. He loves me more than anyone, and He wants me to love Him enough to trust Him with my life. Can I do that? You bet I can! He has proven nothing but faithful in the past. My eyes have been too focused on the east winds rising up around me instead of being focused on the One who controls the winds.
Life will not turn around overnight. Success will not be seen by day’s end and maybe not for quite sometime. I may wake up in the morning full of doom and gloom, but it will not take me long to realize again who I belong to. And, you know what, I will be fine. Matthew 6:33 states, “But first and most importantly seek His kingdom and His righteousness [His way of doing and being right--the attitude and character of God], and all these things will be given to you also”. This is where I am today.
If you are going through difficult times and feel there is no end in sight ... there is no hope for the situation or people involved ... you simply do not see things working out ... please give it to Him today. Quit trying to figure it out on your own. Self-examine your heart to see what part you play in all of this ... are you being prideful ... are you seeking your will above all instead of His ... are you harboring bitterness, anger, or wrath at the situation or people? God cannot work with an unforgiving heart or one that is toking around bitterness. Give it all to Him today and watch Him lift your weights! He will and He does!!!